TouChed♥

Just feel like wanna copy paste here.

I saw this on FB post.

Its really moved me='(

“When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got

 something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her 

eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was 

thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my 

words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted

 at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I 

knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give 

her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just 

pitied her!


With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could

 own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it

 into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a 

stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back 

what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which 

was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of 

divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I

 didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired 

after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing.

 I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me,

 but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month 

we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had 

his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had 

carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for 

the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I 

thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her

 odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was 

absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said 

scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly 

expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son 

clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of 

pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters

 with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the 

divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to

 wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could 

smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully 

for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her 

face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I 

wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the 

woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized 

that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became 

easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me 

stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could 

not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly 

realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. 

Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing 

his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife 

gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because

 I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, 

walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded

 my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I 

could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t 

noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly 

without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I 

walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the 

divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She

 said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life 

was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because 

we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home 

on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to 

suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into 

tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a 

bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I 

smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only 

to find my wife in the bed -dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was 

so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to 

save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with 

the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the 

mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment 

conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build 

intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!